a good day

today is going seriously well. i woke up happy and am still happy(a first in a long time)  i've had too much calories. i ate popcorn with my mom and brother, we watched the kill bill movies. i love those movies. I'm skinner than uma thurman. i really enjoyed the movie. i love a good martial arts movie. and i tried not to think about the calories going into my mouth one at a time. popcorn is a good snack, it has too many calories. i spent years practicing the art of calorie counting, and its really hard to all of a sudden stop. i do it without thinking really, when i look at food i see numbers. i wish i didnt, but like i said its hard to turn it off.

i think i did really good though. really. i ate a lot of popcorn.(400 cal) and i barely though about it (i'm a liar) recovery is hard and i new that when i decided to get well. i'm not going to give up because i'm stronger than that. i didnt eat for 3 weeks once, someone who is weak couldnt do that. i've proved i am strong and can control my selfs. so now i am going to prove it again. prove it by eating, prove it by getting better.


sorry about my babbling, i feel like my post is boring but i cant think of anything good to write about. hopefully i do not bore you to much! but as always i leave you by saying i love you all, and know that i mean it, you girls have truly given me strength. 


love S xoxo ♥♥


p.s i love you taylor your blog and your comments really give me so much hope and strength. stay safe and well.